I know I'm not the only one who has ever felt this way. You know the feeling, right? The one where you just feel like you are falling short in EVERYTHING you are trying to do? I know I'm not alone out there. I also know that it's not the last time I'll feel this way (as it is definitely NOT the first.)
There seems to be this cycle in my life. I'd like to think I'm not the only one that continually has to experience this particular one. The one where: You feel short so you work really hard to overcome that feeling by pinpointing things that you realize are holding you back. These realizations hopefully propel you into action which hopefully leads to personal growth and generally becoming a better person. Life is good. You're doing okay. Then something new gets thrown at you and you may stumble a bit, but still feel like things aren't totally falling apart. Then you realize you've been kidding yourself, and you're back to feeling short all over again.
But repetition is how we learn, right? When our Heavenly Father wants us to really understand something, he teaches us over, and over, and over again. At least that's how I see things. When something is really important for us to learn in our eternal progression, He wants to make sure we get it right. And since none of us is perfect, we need to have the repetition to remind us when we forget. These little reminders keep us on the right track.
This "short" cycle for me, is (among many other things) a reminder to me that I am not perfect. (As if I really need a reminder!!!) And though I absolutely KNOW that I am not perfect, I can sometimes get comfortable with how I am doing--not being as conscientious about focusing on those areas in which I can most definitely improve. It's a little reminder that I need to remember that this life is a time to prepare to meet God, and that that preparation requires a constant effort to becoming more like my Savior. More Christlike in all I do.
Change is possible. And thank heavens! (Just ask anyone I went to High School with, who still knows me today.) Because of Christ, and his infinite love for us, we can become better. The Atonement has the power to heal, and help, and comfort...Words will never be adequate for me to describe how I feel about that most amazing gift.
And so, as I am writing this today, I feel invigorated. It is time to be done feeling short (for now) and time to start pinpointing those things that I need to change. Time to be a better, and more patient mother. Time to be a better wife. Time to enjoy life, and stop worrying about those trivial things that really don't matter. Time to be a better homemaker. Time to be a better friend. Time to develop my talents, and discover new ones. Time to make more time for my Father in Heaven. Time to be a better leader for my young women. Time to take better care of myself. It's just time. Time for some change.
Change is good. It means we are going somewhere. Hopefully I can start to make some changes in the right direction, and have a good long while until this "short" cycle starts again :-).
But repetition is how we learn, right? When our Heavenly Father wants us to really understand something, he teaches us over, and over, and over again. At least that's how I see things. When something is really important for us to learn in our eternal progression, He wants to make sure we get it right. And since none of us is perfect, we need to have the repetition to remind us when we forget. These little reminders keep us on the right track.
This "short" cycle for me, is (among many other things) a reminder to me that I am not perfect. (As if I really need a reminder!!!) And though I absolutely KNOW that I am not perfect, I can sometimes get comfortable with how I am doing--not being as conscientious about focusing on those areas in which I can most definitely improve. It's a little reminder that I need to remember that this life is a time to prepare to meet God, and that that preparation requires a constant effort to becoming more like my Savior. More Christlike in all I do.
Change is possible. And thank heavens! (Just ask anyone I went to High School with, who still knows me today.) Because of Christ, and his infinite love for us, we can become better. The Atonement has the power to heal, and help, and comfort...Words will never be adequate for me to describe how I feel about that most amazing gift.
And so, as I am writing this today, I feel invigorated. It is time to be done feeling short (for now) and time to start pinpointing those things that I need to change. Time to be a better, and more patient mother. Time to be a better wife. Time to enjoy life, and stop worrying about those trivial things that really don't matter. Time to be a better homemaker. Time to be a better friend. Time to develop my talents, and discover new ones. Time to make more time for my Father in Heaven. Time to be a better leader for my young women. Time to take better care of myself. It's just time. Time for some change.
Change is good. It means we are going somewhere. Hopefully I can start to make some changes in the right direction, and have a good long while until this "short" cycle starts again :-).
4 comments:
Um...are you talking about visiting teaching? Hee hee.
But really, I know what you're talking about. There's just too much stuff to do, and everything we choose to do with our time takes away from other things that we should also be doing. So I try not to sweat the unimportant stuff, like housework, cuz we can't do it all without driving ourselves into the ground.
Thanks for your post! I have been feeling the SAME way lately and it is good to have those "REMINDERS" to help us get back on to what really matters. I have decided that my test of patience this last year is really supposed to teach me something. It is time for me to change, time to be more grateful for what I do have, to be closer to my Savior, to get back to the "basics". You are a great example to me and I am so thankful to have you in my life!
Ditto. (And if you don't need to do the kitchen you could always go after a bathroom...)
You have such a good head on your shoulders. I'm proud to call you my friend. Loves!
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